告别颓废的日子

沉溺的日子或许太久了，
我不能再继续堕落下去，

我要......
重拾信心，
迎接挑战，
乐观面对一切，
归回自己的轨道，
不再做他人的傀儡。

Agonies

Back to blogging...

Past few weeks I had the most miserable experience
in the beginning of college life.
Awkward feelings,
freaking tired of the agonies befallen on me
totally drained, speechless...

Courses of agonies: self-obstinance, discord happened, conflict between two parties, vigorous storming and disappointment.
My heart throbbed unusually fast,
had acute chest pain and stiff shoulder,
seriously don't know what has triggered the pains.

Dad, my mighty dad,
thanks for bringing me to see a cardiologist,
I know you worry about me, care about me and love me,
however,
i just wanna express my true feeling,
Dad mum, relax, I'll take good care of myself and be fine.
Too much of parental control make me feel uneasy.

Dr.Quek
Thanks for the consultation,
it truly healed my illness and inner heart as well.
~it seems exaggerate for a person like ME to see a cardiologist.~

"Learning and playing, both of these must always come together."

Enjoy, stress free~

Random

Past few weeks have been a big big waste,

Mind seemed like totally screwed up,

without knowing what am I really doing, what did I say, what had I done......

Flirting here and there meaninglessly

was what I did in the past few weeks.

Puzzles, confusions, inferior complex, self-hatred, stiff neck,

backache, muscle cramps.....

Are these signs of DEPRESSION?

don't no...

Damn need a "PEACE" of mind.

Somehow really feel like wanna talk to someone else,

my best friends forever - Hanli, Ling, Pei Shi, Eva, Chai Wen....

I wanna share my inner feelings with you all,

I think that's the best way to relief stress.

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Ever since admitted to college,

my perspective towards the nature has changed,

I learnt to deal with people from different backgrounds, races, religions, cultures....etc

MCKL has provided me with valuable social exposures.

somehow I have to change my attitude and learn how to adapt to a new environment.

Orientations, ragging, interactive activities...whatever

asked us to do foolish things in front of seniors,

punished us to do unnecessary deeds,

that time I was really pissed off.

those kinda programmes seem immensely dumb to me at first,

make us feel like so stupid and childish,

and now eventually I know the reasons behind,

they wanted to Embarrass us in order to wipe off our strong EGOISM.

On one particular day, forgot which day,

our lecturer told us off,

"If I found out anyone speaking their mother-tongued language in this college,

he/she would be fined RM1, office bearers fined RM2, doubled!!"

Huh, it meant that I would be fined RM2 if I accidentally speak Mandarin,

worse than the previous ESP....

OMG, it's kinda challenging,

as used to speak Mandarin at secondary...whooh!

fine, just treat it as a NICHE,

somehow we still have to speak English whenever, wherever...

so I have to try my best to COMMUNICATE with no qualms,

phewwss, my mouth is getting lazier, keep closing for every moment, must motivate it ><

MCKL CAT,

7 students and 3 lecturers,

a family of 10 members from diverse backgrounds,

Zin Dee, Kerhi, Preta, Srin, Omar and Yujin.

Omar, the Algerian guy who always stands tall and with a shaggy-beard, refined and "experienced".

Yujin, our senior from China, forgot from which province already,

friendly, outspoken and hilarious.

Lecturers > Ms.Guna, Mdm. Chong and extremely funny guy, Mr.Ferns.

The rest are my adorable kitties >< = CATs), we have not much differences externally :(

Lastly, before put my pen into an end,

I would like to express my words of wisdom to all my CAT members by saying

"Balancing is our talent, so strikes a balance in every aspect of your life, manage your time wisely and enjoy life!"

No new year resolutions?

I had a bad day

Wed-23/12/2009

Christmas Day and New Year Day are around the corner,

This year is to over,and 2010 is welcoming us merrily.

What will my new year resolutions gonna be?

Sighs...haven't thought about it, don't even wanna bother about it.

It's year end of 2009,

I'm not in favour of any X'mas celebrations nor new year countdowns.

Friends, sorry~

The reason is that I have committed myself to my school's leadership camp.

When I's deciding to volunteer as the organizing committee member,

I's in slight confusion.

I's doubt with my ability.

I's unconfident with myself.

I's used to be guide by others but not to guide others.

I wondered, Would there be an ultra mentality that can enhance my self-confidence?

Upon the last moment, I decided to participate in it.

Perhaps.... I would gain and learn more than what have I expected.

Surprisingly, I managed to mix around with the committee members.

Did had some great moments & pleasures with them

and the feel is awesome.

However, today we're called to go back to school for a session learning

with Mr.Fang Lian Hua,

the co-curricular department teacher of a Sabah Chinese school(forgotten what's the school name).

He's extremely amusing and well-spoken, besides pro in leading curricular activities.

He asked us about our opinions towards the companionship between fellow committee members.

To me, I felt that the bond within us isn't strong enough.

Frankly, some of the committee members have been disengaged,

there are many tasks still incomplete,

and there are so many uncertainties.

This organizing committee is too split!!!

Now,I'm absolutely pissed off with this kinda situation.

hesitated and moody now, moaning in a deep pain from 'the annoyance of women'...

Whoahss, hope that all would be fine when the day comes...

Leadership camp committee members, let's work for it! Ganbateh!!!

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The night scenes in Kuala Lumpur City Centre is beautiful.

Just a day after Tung Zhi, and 2 days before X'mas.

It'd be wonderful to accompany grandma for a window shopping and to chill out for some delicacies.

But, everything went 'wrong' when we have all planned.

It's not my day!!!!

First, we had delicious fish ball noodles at Jalan Pudu.

Then, we decided to see d festive decorations at Pavillion.

Grandma was so excited as she loved to see X'mas decorations.

When we reached Jalan Loke Yew, where nearby Tsun Jin High School,

our car suddenly broke down as there's a massive jam.

Oh pooh, the traffic got more congested as our car blocked the main lane to Jalan Imbi.

An Indian guy suddenly stopped in front of us and claimed that he's a mechanic.

He checked the car, and told us that the clutch cable has collapsed, it have to send to the workshop.

He asked us to call a tow truck immediately to pull the car away.

Luckily, I have the contact no. of a motor workshop which locates next to our house. It's ideal to save every services contact no.,haha^^...

I called our friendliest mechanic, and he did helped us to find a tow truck.

Later, I called my cousin bro to fetch my grandma back.

When my cousin arrived,he seemed to be stunned when he saw us sitting at the road side helplessly, and Me & Mama left behind to wait for the tow truck.

We waited for 1 hour and the truck finally came and left our old French car away...

So sad, my dad would be disappointed if he knew that his French beauty was encountering problems.

Oh, today is really a bad day.~~

Goodbye! Chong Hwa Independent High School

1106 > It's my last day of school.
Wow, so slow yet so fast.
It's over five years,
And countless memories have gone past,

First and foremost,
A very special thanks to C.H.,
a highly recognised school which has produced many well rounded scholars,
despite having good and dedicated teachers, and even friendly workers(校工).

Secondly,
A big hug for all my Great Teachers
who had guided and conducted us meticulously,
and also accompanied us through all the ups and downs
during those stressful periods,
all the sequences have come to an end,
however hope that we will still be connected in the future.

*Way to improve my memory
Form 1 teachers >
王香棋师（初一爱班主任兼数学老师）
~来到中华第一天就被你提选做副班长，原本很不想干，结果被你说服到很有那个热诚去执行好班长的任务。外表严肃的你，其实内心挺善良。谢谢您给我机会！！
Cikgu Tee Yoke Kim ( Guru Bahasa Malaysia)
Ms.Ee (English language teacher)
江小萍师 （华文老师）
邱玮琳师 （Guru Sejarah)
林华雄师 （历史老师）
黄桂金师（地理老师）
张晓清师 (Science teacher)
张春宝师/陈维秀师 (Kemahiran hidup)
尤老师 （道德）
吴珊珊师 （音乐）
周天采师 （美术）
郑老师 （体育）

Form 2 teachers >
黄爱婷师 （初二孝班主任兼华文老师）
~我的至爱老师，外表不但吸引人，内在也非常好，教书也不赖，就算语气较温柔，教书有些闷，我还是会专心聆听她的课。谢谢您给我鼓励！！
陈良声师 (数学老师）
Cikgu Fadila （Guru Bahasa Malaysia)
Ms. Chong ~ 当过英文干事！
Cikgu Tan/Cikgu Wan Rosdi (Guru Sejarah)
李秀萍师 (历史老师）
陈秀香师（香菇 ^^）~ 记得看我的地图！
陈爱妮师/陈宝宝师 （科学老师）~ 一个很靓女，一个很会教。
杨育豪师 （物理老师）~ 脾气怪怪，但人很洽谈。有一次，你骂我们班“鸟”，过后还叫我们回家找辞典，它的另个读音和意思是什么，结果我回家真的有找。读音是 "xxxx", 心想做么好骂不骂，要骂“那边”，真恶心！
陈良远师 （kemahiran hidup)
莫碧薇师 （电脑老师）
霍旭峰师 （美术老师）
陈志强师 ~ 当过体育股长，也是专长8oom !!

Form 3 teachers >
Cikgu Yew (Guru Tingkatan 3 Ren dan guru bahasa Malaysia)
~ 还记得写过两篇国文周记>>人生中的第一次就给了你. 第一次创作pantun, 1 puisi dan 1 sajak，有一篇刊登在Samudera, haha^^. 听说您的厨艺一流，下次请我们吃顿亲手煮的菜肴吧！
谢谢您的唠叨，催促我们发奋！
百万云师 ~ 谢谢您赞我独立！ ^^
Ms.Meagan ~ My most admired teacher!!
Cikgu Wan Rosdi ~ agak tampan.
唐莱温师 ~ 每次打瞌睡，一定会被你用玩具锤子敲醒。
林慧清师 ~ 在背后默默努力的好老师。
Cikgu Tan Tang Tang (kemahiran Hidup)
王玉春师 （地理老师）
黄明达师/苏利慧师 (音乐老师）
林淑贞师 （至爱体育老师）

Form 4 teachers >
倪子杰师 （高一文忠班主任兼数学老师）~ 无言，谢谢！
Cikgu Intan terpilih （Guru bahasa Malaysia)
Mr. Cheong Khai Fan ~ my most patient and jovial teacher!
苏佩玲师 ~ 其实您教书很认真......
林欣妮师（Guru sejarah)
叶丽卿师 (历史老师)
原敏仪师（至爱地理老师）
叶虹昭师 （Science teacher)
Nana Koo ~ 谢谢您帮我搞好bookeep, 让我对bookeep非常兴趣。
饶丽芳师 ~ 也许我一辈子都不会忘记你那灿烂的笑容！
谢静仪师/吴老师 （电脑老师）
曾添才师 （美术老师）
张启镜师 （体育老师）

Form 5 teachers > 班刊写了 ^^

Last but not least, my dearest friends !
Thanks for all the mental support, bd gifts, helping hands and sincerities~
I truely appreciated all the things which dealt with me.
~ Bliss ~

SPM GANBATEH!!

[ Hard work is the price we must pay for success. And I'm confident that you can accomplish your target in life, if you are willing to pay it. ]

Relax and take a deep breath

TRANQUILITY

I felt the wind of tranquility has blowned over me.

I had an extraordinary feeling on every particular happenings.

Perhaps it's time for me to relax and walk to the beach,

take a deep breath and inhale some fresh air.

Fearless

Gosh ~ Trial exam is around the corner.
& I seem like still hanging in the deep blue sky.
I'm not fully prepared for trial yet I'm still so relax,
totally no burden at all.

I always give an excuse by claiming that
'Last minute revision is useless, keep loading notes into our brains are pointless.'
And wait till the day comes(the exam day), our brain will surely be BLANK
as the result of OVERLOADED TOO MUCH INFO.
I think my current memory storage is only subdue to less than 1 MB,
can't afford more than it.
So when could I upgrade my memory storage to 100 MB?
My RAM is dysfuntioning,
Sucks~

Alright,
let's back to my aim for trial SPM,
my aim is to pass all subjects with satisfying score.
Thus, I'll not afraid of it.
I must get fid of my EXAM PHOBIA.
~Fearless~